I knew when I started this project that it was important. I knew from the silence surrounding aging, death and dying. It’s what kept me going through the lulls: when no new interviewees showed up, when I got stuck in project limbo, when I didn’t know what the next step was, when I had to wait for participants to approve their story. I had to pause wherever “here” was and re-focus on why and how this was important. It led me back again and again to being inspired and motivated.

Today I’m at that place, the “There” that I wished for, like we all do when we have an idea or dream. It took longer than I liked which I suppose is normal for the trip to “There.” Like everyone, I wished it would be faster and take sooner. But getting “There” is a journey into time unknown and undefined, especially when it is transformative.

Getting to my “There” has been a personal evolution, bringing more clarity and understanding, and many more questions as you might guess. It required patience, determination and community. There is no way I could have accomplished this without a village of friends, colleagues, knowledge+wisdom-keepers.

Yes, there will be celebrating. I’m planning an intimate book launch to celebrate with the courageous participants and the support/creative team who helped me realise this book.

                                                  Photo by  Toa Heftiba

                                                  Photo by Toa Heftiba

I’m also planning to celebrate with a special bonfire. I’ve started to collect all the notes, transcriptions, re-writes, drafts, and packaging them together in bundles. In a few weeks, I’ll head out with some friends to a secluded spot in the country where we’ll build a spectacular fire. It might even look like the image on the book cover. I’ll toss the sheets of paper into the flames until the piles of papers burn away into the darkness.

I’m letting go of this project and book, letting it go into the world, letting it leave my office and my home, leave my head and heart. For many years I have held it, been devoted to it. Now it’s time to let it go and move on. A transition.

I am ready to clear space - physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual - for new energy, fresh creativity, new ideas, new possibilities and opportunities. Fresh sparks are ready to fly and they need clear space to fan brighter and higher.